Amy Schumer is Marie Claire‘s August cover star in the US, and she has opened up in an interview about love and life.
When asked about her first time, Schumer said that the circumstances were less than desirable.
“My first sexual experience was not a good one. I didn’t think about it until I started reading my journal again,” she said. “When it happened, I wrote about it almost like a throwaway. It was like, And then I looked down and realized he was inside of me. He was saying, ‘I’m so sorry’ and ‘I can’t believe I did this.”
According to The Huffington Post, she also told the magazine that the incident happened 17 years ago and there were ‘so many factors’ involved. She even spoke about another time it had happened, saying “I had another time with a boyfriend where I was saying, ‘No, stop,’ and it was just completely ignored.”
She said that she didn’t personally identify herself as a rape victim, however she commented on the perception of rape victims in society.
“You know, with the rape survivor, it’s not just shaming, it’s fury,” Schumer said. “It makes people so mad if you’re not a perfect victim.”
She also spoke about her current relationship with Ben Hanisch: “I feel like Ben is the first guy who’s really been my boyfriend. There are guys who, if they heard me say that, would want to punch me in the face, but yeah, it’s the truth.”
She says that being in love is the ‘scariest thing in the world’ and talked about how she finds it hard to handle.
“Every time we say good-bye, I think, This will have been a nice last week together. Or I tell myself nothing is real and he’s going to leave me and tell me he never loved me. I feel so bad for him. How exhausting it must be dating me.”
