“When I wasn’t in the studio, I never left the house,” explained the magazine’s cover girl. “I mean, never. Not even a tiptoe outside. I’d ask people who came inside why they were wet. Was it raining? How would I know — I had every shade closed. Most days were spent on the exact same spot on the couch and rarely would I muster up the energy to make it upstairs for bed.”
“John would sleep on the couch with me, sometimes four nights in a row,” Teigen added. “I started keeping robes and comfy clothes in the pantry so I wouldn’t have to go upstairs when John went to work. There was a lot of spontaneous crying.”
Chrissy says she started to question herself, and whether she was just a different person now.
“Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom,” she writes.
“I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy. What basically everyone around me—but me—knew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression”
After going to see her doctor she was diagnosed with post-partum depression and anxiety.
“I also just didn’t think it could happen to me. I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But post-partum depression does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it. And that’s just part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do.”
Post-partum depression (also known as post natal depression) affects 1 in 7 Australian women who give birth in Australia each year. While many new mothers experience the ‘baby blues’ in the first few days after giving birth, this usually only last 2-3 days. When symptoms last longer than this it may be a sign of developing post-partum depression.
According to HealthDirect.gov.au, common signs of postnatal depression include:
- have a very low mood
- feel inadequate and a failure as a mother
- have a sense of hopelessness about the future
- feel exhausted, empty, sad and teary
- feel guilty, ashamed or worthless
- feel anxious or panicky
- have trouble sleeping, sleep for too long or have nightmares
- worry excessively about their baby
- are scared of being alone or going out.
For help and support contact:
PANDA - 1300 726 306
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