After nearly a month off the social media grid, Chrissy Teigen has resurfaced once more to publicly apologise over the controversial bullying allegations against her name.
Taking to writing platform Medium on June 14, Teigen penned a lengthy letter, titled “Hi Again”, which she then shared across her other social media platforms.
In the statement, she wrote that she had “been sitting in a hole of deserved global punishment, the ultimate ‘sit here and think about what you’ve done.’”
“Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past.”
Many may remember that the reason for her social banishment began due to decade-old tweets that had resurfaced online, supposedly taking aim at American TV personality Courtney Stodden.
Stodden, who identifies as nonbinary, opened up about abusive tweets from Teigen in an interview with the Daily Beast, detailing one tweet by the Cravings author telling a then-16-year-old Stodden to kill themselves, after calling them derogatory names.
And while Stodden wasn’t directly named in her recent statement, Teigen did admit that she was “truly ashamed” of her past “awful (awful, awful)” tweets.
“There is simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets,” Teigen wrote in her statement. “My targets didn’t deserve them. No one does. Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humour. I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry.”
From there, Teigen revealed that she’s currently attempting to privately reach out to people she had insulted in the past, explaining that she originally began using social media to “snark at some celebrities.”
“If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities,” she admitted.
She continued: “In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted.”
“I wasn’t just attacking some random avatar, but hurting young women—some who were still girls—who had feelings. How could I not stop and think of that?” she said.
Ensuring that the public didn’t see the statement as a grab for attention, Teigen reiterated her intentions for the letter.
“I’m not a victim here,” she said, but added that she was “no longer the person who wrote those horrible things” after marrying John Legend, starting a family and regularly attending therapy.
“We are all more than our worst moments,” Teigen wrote. “I won’t ask for your forgiveness, only your patience and tolerance. I ask that you allow me, as I promise to allow you, to own past mistakes and be given the opportunity to seek self-improvement and change.”
Not convincing a certain demographic of the internet, her apology come after recent allegations that her tweets were also bullying celebrities like Lindsay Lohan and Teen Mom alum Farrah Abraham between 2011 to 2013.
As a result of the tweets, Teigen was reportedly dropped from a voice over role in Mindy Kaling’s Netflix comedy Never Have I Ever, as per Variety on June 4.
Additionally, Teen Mom alum Farrah Abraham called Teigen an “unfit person for society” after Teigen allegedly sex shamed her in a now deleted tweet, calling Abraham as “w***e”.
In an interview with Fox News, Abraham called Teigen’s negative words “pathetic”, calling her out for targeting someone who’s struggling with depression.
“It‘s really just a pathetic statement after someone has gone to therapy publicly for sex shaming, working through my own depression, bereavement, and vulnerabilities at that time. I don‘t even say the words she says.”