Fara
“One day my friends told me that they received my chewing gum. Where I come from, when a lady is getting married, the family distributes chewing gum, kola-nut, sweet, salt, and other things to inform members of the community. I was confused. I cried and fell ill for two days. I was going to be handed over to my cousin. I didn’t want to get married, but my father agreed. I was 17 at the time.
We rarely ever spoke, and he became physically abusive. We were married for two years, but I only lived with him for two months. I would go to my parents’ house, and after a while my father would send me back. When I return to his house, a few days later I would leave again.
My father ended the marriage on the grounds that I was too stubborn, and he had had enough. Ever since we got divorced, I have been very happy.” —Fara
Says Etinosa: “Fara’s energy is infectious. I love her confidence. All through the interview, I was in awe of her. Her doggedness made her father end the marriage she was forced into. I was so uplifted during our discussion.”
Uwani
“My dad married me off when I was in primary school. As soon as we got married, the beatings started. On two occasions the beatings were so severe I passed out.
Five days before I was due to give birth to our last child, he tried to sleep with me. I politely refused and explained that I felt tired because I was heavily pregnant, worse still I was hungry. He beat me up for saying no to him.
I plan to get a divorce, if he agrees, I will move on, if he does not, I will have to wait. My husband does not provide for the family. Many a time, I would have to send my children out to beg just so I can get money to buy food for them. I have never enjoyed my marriage, I don’t really see myself as a married woman.” —Uwani
Says Etinosa: “When I met Uwani, her youngest child was a month old. She looked so desperate for help. She was hungry; she looked so broken. It was so painful to see a nursing mother go through all she was going through at the time. I gave the translator some money to give her so that she could take care of her and her kids for a few days. The whole session broke me.”
Maimuna
“Our community was attacked by the insurgents, and my dad was killed. My family fled our hometown to the IDP camp. I was 13 at the time.
While at the camp, a police officer whom we knew would ask me to come to his house so that I could do some work for him. As soon as I got there, he pushed me into his room. He raped me and told me not to tell anyone otherwise he would kill me. I told my mom but she told me to keep quiet. He raped me again, but the third time I screamed. Fortunately, some neighbors heard me and rescued me.
People say that it’s my fault that I was raped. The officer was transferred, and my mother refused to follow up the case. People laugh at me, they say I kept going back. It makes me angry, it makes me sad.” —Maimuna
Says Etinosa: “Meeting Maimuna, you could tell she was broken and hurt. She rarely wore a smile, worse still she was often picked on by other people. She always fought back, but that made her constantly angry. It felt like she had been robbed of her childhood. She sat with us and shared her story, but she was distant.”
Halima
“I was married off when I was 12. When I turned 14, I got pregnant. After I gave birth, I was admitted to the hospital because I had eclampsia. I could not see nor talk. After 25 days I began to see; three months later I began talking again.
My husband was killed during an attack by Boko Haram insurgents. After his death, I went to fetch water. A middle-aged man called me. When I got close, he dragged me inside. He raped me and ran away. I realized he wanted to rape me so I pleaded with him, but he did not answer me.
Months after, we left and started staying in an IDP camp. I eventually gave birth to a baby who died after five months. I used to cry a lot before; I also felt angry as people mocked me when I was pregnant. I am trying to move on, I have left everything in the hands of God.” —Halima
Says Etinosa: “Halima is presumed to have schizophrenia. Thankfully, the translator I worked with was extra cautious which made it easier for Halima to express herself. For me, one of the things that really hurt me about Halima’s story is the fact that despite the layers of traumatic events that have happened to her, her family somehow blames her for it.”
Jamila
“My first husband was killed by insurgents. We relocated to the IDP camp. After the death of my husband, things got really hard. I could not take care of myself nor my children.
I decided to remarry to ease my burden. The man I married was very kind and supportive initially. My husband had another wife but made sure to visit me often. I got a card from the camp management to enable me to get food. I noticed that my husband would take [the food] to his other family. When I ask him why, he would beat me. The beatings became a routine, and he stopped providing for my family all together.
Things got so bad, my son began to beg so we could eat.
I got pregnant, but my husband did not provide me with any form of support. I assumed that getting married will ease my burden, but it turned out worse.” —Jamila
Says Etinosa: “During my time with Jamila, I thought about how cruel our world is especially for girls and women. I was reconnected with Jamila a year later and it appears that she is in a worse state than before. It left me with a lot of questions. Why do women have to be the burden bearers? Why do men leave the responsibility of taking care of the children to women just as a way to punish them? How can we empower women with skills that will make them self-sufficient? Why do women need approval from their partners to get family planning?”
This article originally appeared on marie claire U.S.
